It's been a little over 2 months since the our relationship ended but with the emotions, thoughts and talks generated since , it sure feels a lot longer.... As it turns out, time does fly by when you are in pain and that is good news... I can't wait to get back to my happy self. Motivation at times still seems hard to find and smiles although more common are still not a strong part of my day to day routine. The thing I am the proudest of is not to have let anger take over. There is no point in introducing yet an another negative emotion to my state of mind. I rather keep working on healing sources such as exercise, nurturing of good friendships, self discovery of one's edge and expressions of compassion for the world and myself; essentially, creating awareness.
My upcoming trip reads like a box office Jennifer Aniston flop: "Heartbroken girl heading to New Orleans for a wedding". On the other hand, it could also turn into a "Girls Gone Wild" episode, it's New Orleans after all... Before anyone gets too exited, considering I do not drink, premise # 2 is highly unlikely...
Heading to a wedding without my fav plus one will be different then the last 5 weddings I have attended but at least I will be among people I know honoring a wonderful woman and friend of the past 15 years. Celebrating the next stage of her relationship and witnessing pure love in action could do me some good and perhaps give me hope I will love again. I am not certain how I will feel but I will surely do my best to keep an open heart and mind (so JLO of me circa The Wedding Planner). Traveling is one of my favorite things in life, I took my first trip from Europe to Africa at 18 days old... But will I be able to leave my baggage here at least for a few days? Plus don't airlines charge extra for baggage? ( $1 attempt at a joke)
I knew very little about Anthony Bourdain until I caught a few episodes of his show " No reservations" where he travels the world sampling food and cultures in some of the most exotic destinations such as Sri Lanka and Brazil to name a few. His sarcasm and New Yorker attitude makes the show. I love this quote of his: "Travel changes you. As you move through this life and this world you change things slightly, you leave marks behind, however small. And in return, life - and travel - leaves marks on you. Most of the time, those marks - on your body or on your heart - are beautiful. Often, though, they hurt."
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| Where can I buy this dress??? |
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| why do I keep making horrible movies JLO seem to ponder... |
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