Shot to the heart and you're to blame, you give love a bad name

"I am not against commiting, just not to you.  My heart is not into it and I can't keep leading you on".
Those are words on one in their right frame of mind wants to hear and yet these very word came out of my ex.  As painful and hurtful as hearing this was, I know know exactly where I stand and that is positive and powerful.  There is nothing worst then hoping and praying for something that is so hopeless.  I also heard "I want you in my life in some capacity" and "I am not sure if it's me but I need to figure it out and shed some skin".  All that over a 5 minutes conversation set the tone for my day. As much as I wish I had more to say about it, I don't...This sent me flat on my ass.  Needless to say keeping it together at work proved to be quite challenging.  I broke out in tears to colleagues at least 3 times.  I know in the days to come I will draw lessons and conclusions and reflect on what has been truly a magical relationship.  I know this is all for the best and that I will survive but for now, I am drowning my sorrows in Adele's new album, 21and Mumfords & Son's Sigh No More

Special thanks to Dylan S, Paddy S, Brenda, Harald and Cari @ Box for listening and the perspective.