Diaries Of A Broken Heart: What would Demi Moore and Monica Belluci do??

I was sick all week and I can't believe too tired to write... But that was last week! It's a new week and I am back!

Today's big news in America was the death of Osama Bin Laden... Almost 10 years after Bin Laden orchestrated the attacks of 9/11, US special forces were able to locate and kill him hopefully bringing some sense of closure and justice to the innocent people who died on that day. Sadly, it won't bring them nor the people who have died since back... That is the real sad part. I never thought we would actually catch this guy and I also never thought I would be single again so there, you never know what happens next! Strange parallel, I know, but my point being is that after 9 some years we did catch him and finally there is some closure. Perhaps, now that it's been 3 months I need to find my own closure. One can not live in the past, that simple. There is much to cherish about what was but much more to celebrate about what is to come. Summer is almost here and although I was happy to be able to get into my 2 piece bikini, there is much more I could do... about another 19 pounds if you really want to know... It's a goal, something to work towards. Summer also brings a certain desire to be free and light and at the beach all day wearing some pretty white linen dress (which reminds me, Calypso St Barth is now available at Target!! Yeh!!) I am starting to finally want to shed this heavy coat of emotion I have been carrying around. I feel like an old eastern european women carrying a load ( see pics below) needing to unburden myself of it so I get back to being me. Femme Monica Bellucci or Demi Moore (the ex thought I looked like her, I really don't) would never let a guy kill the sexy and smart out of them, they would instead just find a younger and better man (Demi married Ashton) or unleash their seductive ways onto the world ( who can resist that Monica?)... Not there yet but at least remembering that once upon a time, I too was a wannabe Vixen! Back to the gym tomorrow! Yey!!