PX 90 Anyone?

 As I am getting to the 90 day "milestone" I can't help but think of all the "transform your life in 90 days" workout videos I have purchased, tried and at times returned!! From PX90 to most recently, Tracy Anderson's metamorphosis which promises to get my in the best shape of my life in, you guessed it, 90 days!  My point being a lot can happen in 90 days...

On the health tip, I am 18 pounds lighter, 3 sizes smaller in the waist and much more stronger physically, no thanks to Tracy or PX90, all credits due to hiking, Muai Thai, MMA conditioning and all the dedication of the coaches at True Warrior Fitness.  I have tried to loose this weight for over a year and sadly it took losing the relationship to get me motivated to get in shape.  Well actually, let me rephrase this... Once I lost the relationship, working out helped me feel and get better and yes I also did not want to gain more weight and look like hell after getting dumped!

On a professional tip, I have been more aggressive about growing within my field and more focused on getting new clients.  I created a plan for the next two years of goals I want to achieve professionally.  Just for perspective, 90 days ago I was hoping I would be getting a ring in two year... sigh

On a personal tip, I feel better but I am still a fragile damage flower the Santa Ana winds could knock down (so dramatic and cheesy.. LOL) in a breeze.  Although my roots are strong and I know who I am and what I bring to the table, I still have moments where I doubt it all.  Will I ever be in love again, will I ever be happy again and more importantly, will I ever believe I can be in a lasting relationship?  Lots of questions only the future will indeed answer.... And I can't even really worry about it because that is not living in the moment....

In conclusion... I still miss my relationship, I still miss and love him but focusing on other areas of my life has helped me regain a bit of in control in a situation (my life) where I felt I had none.  Control leads to confidence, confidence leads to being happy and not needing validation.  One step at a time, I am rebuilding lil ol' me.

Change and getting out of my comfort zone isn't in my nature and would have not been my choice, but rainbows do come after the rain after all (or everywhere if you live in West Hollywood like I do) and I have to believe that there is a reason for all this madness.  A better tomorrow :)

She did her PX90 alright and not it's not me!!!